Here’s a new song we’re learning Sunday at Revolution Church as we look at John 14:7 – 31 and the peace that the Holy Spirit brings to our lives. Fits perfectly.
We have met our son, FINALLY seen his sweet smile, squeezed his small body, got lost in his big eyes and then had to say goodbye for 5-10 weeks. Every time I think about leaving him that last day tears come to my eyes; we walk with him toward the lunchroom and his breathing becomes great heaves. Josh and I are trying to hold it together and not have a complete melt down in front of our son, who has lost SO MUCH, and now probably feels like the hope that he may have found in a relationship with us is being ripped away from him. We help him wash his hands, and instead of his lighthearted smile and willingness to obey, he is in a fit of tears and his legs won’t support him… we kiss his sweet face and walk away. The nanny explains we will be back, but how can a 4 year old know that in his heart. So again because my arms are too short to change anything in this process, we pray; that he doesn’t lose hope, that when we return he doesn’t reject us because he has felt abandoned by us, and that our hearts will be ruled by peace and patience as we wait.
This is the part that gets me, being ruled by peace as we wait. There have been times in this waiting that I have gotten caught up in the frenzy of wanting to know what is going on, following other people’s journey forward and feeling forgotten, and it. has. been. sin. Before we traveled to meet our son, we were waiting on a piece of paper from a government official giving us the clearance to travel, as we waited I begged God that it would come through. One morning I woke up especially early and prayed, I watched the sun rise and was reminded of what we tell our kids… see that light from the sun, it is so bright that it is hard to look it, that is what the glory of the Lord looks like…
That morning I was reminded of the truth that God’s ways are above our ways, that He exists outside of time and He already sees it as done. The timing of the thing that I was so anxious about, God already saw as DONE. Thinking in that way helped me to not just cling to the peace that I knew I should have, but actually live in it.
We are in a time of waiting again, this is some of the most painful waiting we have had to do up to this point…
I am reminded of God’s heart toward us, His calling us and desire to be in relationship with us, and because of his patience we have salvation (2 Peter 3:15). My desire through this is to grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be the glory both now and to the day of eternity (2 Peter 3:18). If I fall into the sin of worry, control and lack of peace, then I am not pressing into God’s heart for me or my son, who is not orphaned because he is OUR SON NOW, but feels orphaned. There is a longing in my heart that can very easily cross over into the sin of worry, but if I feel that and see it through God’s heart toward those who have not crossed over into His family I am more likely to live in His peace.
Isaiah 53:5 says,
But he was wounded for our transgressions; he was crushed for our iniquities; upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace, and with his stripes we are healed.
If I am not living in peace then I am neglecting the very crucifixion of Jesus, and I think that is the biggest sin in adoption.
Turn on the news, open the paper and it is all the same. Employment up, prices going up, health concerns, people losing their homes, retirement going down the drain, investments go down.
So what do we do? We worry. It makes sense, it is the response everyone has. But what if I told you that the Bible is clear that we are not to worry. Is that even possible? Is there hope for someone who worries all the time?
Many of us right now are dealing with some huge anxieties, things we don’t know the way out of. We worry, but it just seems to get worse. We try to pray about it, we try to trust God, but God seems to become more and more distant. So, what is the answer?
That’s what we will be talking about on Saturday night as we continue our series in the book of Philippians called The Blessed Life.
This would be a great week to invite someone to Revolution who is struggling with worry, anxiety and not experiencing peace. You never know how a simple invitation can make an eternal difference in someone’s life.
Remember, we meet at 5pm at 6620 E 22nd St.
Don’t forget, our Christmas offering is in full swing. Please be praying and thinking about what God is calling you to give this year to help us move the gospel forward outside of the walls of Revolution.
See you Saturday.
“The Church has surrendered her once lofty concept of God and has substituted for it one so low, so ignoble, as to be utterly unworthy of thinking, worshiping men. This she has done not deliberately, but little by little and without her knowledge; and her very unawareness only makes her situation all the more tragic. The low view of God entertained almost universally among Christians is the cause of a hundred lesser evils everywhere among us. A whole new philosophy of the Christian life has resulted from this one basic error in our religious thinking.” – A.W. Tozer, The Knowledge of the Holy